Dealing with the loss of a loved one is alway so difficult, especially a loved one that hand a vital hand in raising you. Saying goodbye is not definite, but its definitely not easy. Moving on with your life, trying not to have breakdowns and emotional outbursts is always a struggle. However, knowing that your no longer suffering your no longer in pain, your just at ease. The part that hurts my heart the most is that I wasn't given the chance to say goodbye to tell you that I love you one last time, or give you a final and everlasting hug. You'll forever be in my heart. I love you.